Beyond peak performance: on depth and meaning

I've been debating whether I should post it here or not but I figured, what have I got to lose?

So here it goes... I've always been fascinated by peak performance. I've always been curious about what's going on inside the minds of champions, of people who are at the top of their game, people who are making a dent in this world -- how they live their lives, how they structure their days. I want to know what they know and think how they think. I wondered if only I knew what they knew maybe I could improve my life massively and live a life I'm passionate about instead of just following what society dictates. So I got obsessed. This led to my obsession with reading books about self-improvement and finding mentors from afar. Of taking risks and choosing certain careers and lifestyles that forced me to constantly push beyond my comfort zone. Until the constant pushing backfired and became unsustainable. I wanted something more. I wanted something else. I wanted depth and meaning. Joy and satisfaction. I wanted peace. Not that I no longer want peak performance. But it was more of a search on how can I change the narrative I tell myself so that this doesn't just become an empty pursuit of external validation and external rewards. What story do I tell myself? How can I look at this from a new perspective? How can I make peak performance and all of those other new things that I want? Eventually, I landed on this concept of flow state. It resonated so strongly with how I want to live my life. It spoke to me. It understood me. It articulated whatever it is I couldn't put into words. It gave structure to my thinking. I consumed all the content I could get my hands on about the topic and immersed myself in this world of flow state and optimal functioning. Until, here we are. I don't know about you but at this point in my life, yes I want the external rewards. But more than that, I want peace and satisfaction. Have you done vision casting for 2024 yet? What do you envision for the upcoming year? What kind of life do you want to live?